deal no deal?

I am not a risk taker in certain things,that is.
Even if i m assured that the risk is worth taking, but i still somehow doubt or think twice or sometimes think n then won't take the risk..
Its too risky, n i don't want to lose..i cannot take it anymore i know,i might die or if i didnt den the rest of my life will b meaningless.

anugerah hidup lebih bermakna dgn adanya kehadiran elemen kebahagiaan, tetapi jika tiada kebahagiaan, hidup tiada begitu bermakna or mungkin langsung tidak bermakna.