I am depressed, am i? I don't Know, I am Not kot.
Ok, Confirm i am no more depressed Kot.
Nevermine, I dont feel depressed at this moment.

I seriously got nothing to blog, NOTHING at all.
Actually theres is something,but i havent finished yet, n Dont know will i ever finished it anot.

as usual

mid terms. mid terms. coming after me!
and here am i. heehee, so if u want to read my blog(dat also if got ppl read), u know when to come.
Times when my midterms is coming, exams coming, assignments dueing, n when finals sumore menarik...That is when i will blog blog blog.

Memang amat malasnya saya untuk mengulang kaji sekarang, dan sampai sekarang saya masih tidak tahu, bila baru akan saya insaf. Saya tidak mahu menghampakan diri saya, dan yang paling penting saya tidak mahu menghampakan ibu bapa saya.

Saya perlu diselamatkan, tetapi tidak ada sesiapa pun yang bisa selamatkan saya kecuali diri saya sendiri. Sejak kebelakangan ini saya memang tidak dapat apa untuk diblog,kerana otak saya kosong bagai sekeping kertas putih. Sekeping kertas putih, yang diminta untuk dituliskan sesuatu, tetapi tulisannya tak sampai sampai.
Dengan itu saya menamatkan utusan saya kali ini.
Selamat Tinggal,semoga berjumpa lagi. Moga2 saya insaf.

Everything is okay for the mean time n now lets hope that everything will be alright forever!

I so so can't wait for misi to happen.. hehe

=)

empat jam,enam minit

Its now four o six and i m awake blogging.
I am still here blogging when there is something else that i should be doing.
No,not to sleep,but to work work work on my assignment.
I slept for almost the wholeday,n that is why i am not sleeping now.
N i have to wake up in the morning tomorrow,late morning pun jadi, not noon or later than that!
I better go sleep...

I know i mentioned this before, but i just have to do that again until i know that its alright, so...

p/s : Lets hope n hope n hope that everything will be alright.

kegatalan tangan

i m now doing my assignment.
So,what m i doing here?
haha,just dropping by to post a post cos my hand gatal want to blog abit.
cis, bedebah me rite? so lazy doing assignment also must pass by...
So, bye...

p/s : Lets hope n hope everything will be alright =)

Sunday

I always love sunday cause it would be a holiday, n its the day to rest n relax.
and thats what i do today,rest n relax n just take my time to do watever i have to.
I stayed at home today.
Woke up late,as usual.
Turn on the computer, go online, check mail.
Wash clothes dengan perkhidmatan washing machine.
Sidai Baju.
Tukar bedsheets,pillowcase,comforter.
Keep telling myself that i hav to wash them tomorow.
Go online again,chat a while.
Mandi.
Read newspaper.
Have late lunch.
I am now here onlining.

Friday the twenty-seventh

i am here again tonite.
wanting to blog and going to.

I woke up late abit, and rush to mandi and after finishing rushing myself to be ready, i left to sch.
I was driving n i got a msg from my friend saying that class cancelled! adakah patut? memang patut. yay! class cancelled,but sure got replacements n all but tidak apa la.
So,i am free for the day!n so i went to klcc with my friend via rapid kl n Lrt.
Save petrol,dun drive, petrol so damn mahal now!
First time i took rapid kl, not bad, quite nice.Lrt i took before,quite fun.
Went to Klcc to jalan jalan ly,no money cannot buy. But theres alot of thing i want right now this moment! but apa nak buat,duit tak da! aih...n its time to save now! but if we spend more then the economy will be good back wert,so how?
So spend,spend,spend ke arah ekonomi baik, but where to get the money? I didnt work. Maybe its time for me to get a part time job.So that i can earn money,n buy what i want! But me,how much pay i can get? aih...

i got distracted just now,and so now i m thinking of what more to blog...


i got nothing more to say,n thats the end.

Dreams...
Mimpi...

I always n always dream.
I dream at night when i sleep.
n also daytime when i m in the class.

I sometimes dream of my fire burning, and sometimes dream that theres no more fire.
and i dream of alot lot of things more.
Sometimes i wake up from my dream laughing.
sometimes i wake up from my dream smiling.
sometimes i wake up from my dream scared.
n more n more sometimes.

For the past few years,my fire only burns in my dream,but that also little fire ly.
so i have been waiting n waiting for "mimpi sempurna" n what i got is only "mimpi hampir sempurna".
N now what will happen when that happens? Nothing,cause that will only be in the dream n in reality nothing happens. sad rite? sad to think n hope for mimpi sempurna?
No,i dont think so.
I believe that being positive,ends up with positive outcome.

Kesempurnaan dalam mimpi bisa menjadi realiti.

Aku percaya Kesempurnaan bisa terjadi.

Wish upon a Star...

and your wish will come true...

How i Wish . . . . .

down?

I am down.
I am indeed very DOWN now, after thinking about my life.
Whats with my life that made me feel down after thinking about it?
I don't know. How can i not know right? but Thats the thing with me, i just don't know.
Don't even know myself.

I am now alone, in a world of my own.
Only me, and thats when i start to think about my life.
This past few days n weeks, i had been thinking deep...very very deep.
I don't know whats wrong with me.

I know,theres nothing that i can complain about in my life.
My grandma, grandfather, father, mother, sisters, uncles, aunties, cousins n etc all are great people. that = My family is GREAT....n
I've got all the basic necessities and even got more than that, i cannot be more thankful.
so, my life should be great rite?

But, theres is still this BUT.
There is this something that made me feel down.
and again i don't know what that something is.
I cannot say that there is no reason behind all these, n it is a lie cause there is something but i just don't know what it is.
Something that is hidden, that even me myself havent discovered whats hidden or missing in my life.
Somehow my thoughts had wondered there and is now struggling or more like dying to know more.
I am not always like this, i dont feel down most of the time. This is unusual.
I am not the usual me. I want to be the usual me again. I do not want to always feel down.
I want to be the carefree me. Yes, i do look like i am the usual me, but when i am alone this is what happens. This is freaking me out.
Too much for me to handle, emo emo emo...

I might or might not know about the hidden or missing something.
At the end of the day life goes on, and how i wish i can go on as life goes on.
I keep on telling myself that life goes on and i will just go with the flow but deep down inside i wont. Cause i just cannot and do not want to go against my will, cause i know in the end i will suffer more if i just follow my life n go on without knowing whats that hidden something inside me.

*Hidup aku takkan sempurna tanpa ...
apa ya? sesuatu yang aku pun belum tahu lagi...