Friday the twenty-seventh

i am here again tonite.
wanting to blog and going to.

I woke up late abit, and rush to mandi and after finishing rushing myself to be ready, i left to sch.
I was driving n i got a msg from my friend saying that class cancelled! adakah patut? memang patut. yay! class cancelled,but sure got replacements n all but tidak apa la.
So,i am free for the day!n so i went to klcc with my friend via rapid kl n Lrt.
Save petrol,dun drive, petrol so damn mahal now!
First time i took rapid kl, not bad, quite nice.Lrt i took before,quite fun.
Went to Klcc to jalan jalan ly,no money cannot buy. But theres alot of thing i want right now this moment! but apa nak buat,duit tak da! aih...n its time to save now! but if we spend more then the economy will be good back wert,so how?
So spend,spend,spend ke arah ekonomi baik, but where to get the money? I didnt work. Maybe its time for me to get a part time job.So that i can earn money,n buy what i want! But me,how much pay i can get? aih...

i got distracted just now,and so now i m thinking of what more to blog...


i got nothing more to say,n thats the end.

Dreams...
Mimpi...

I always n always dream.
I dream at night when i sleep.
n also daytime when i m in the class.

I sometimes dream of my fire burning, and sometimes dream that theres no more fire.
and i dream of alot lot of things more.
Sometimes i wake up from my dream laughing.
sometimes i wake up from my dream smiling.
sometimes i wake up from my dream scared.
n more n more sometimes.

For the past few years,my fire only burns in my dream,but that also little fire ly.
so i have been waiting n waiting for "mimpi sempurna" n what i got is only "mimpi hampir sempurna".
N now what will happen when that happens? Nothing,cause that will only be in the dream n in reality nothing happens. sad rite? sad to think n hope for mimpi sempurna?
No,i dont think so.
I believe that being positive,ends up with positive outcome.

Kesempurnaan dalam mimpi bisa menjadi realiti.

Aku percaya Kesempurnaan bisa terjadi.

Wish upon a Star...

and your wish will come true...

How i Wish . . . . .

down?

I am down.
I am indeed very DOWN now, after thinking about my life.
Whats with my life that made me feel down after thinking about it?
I don't know. How can i not know right? but Thats the thing with me, i just don't know.
Don't even know myself.

I am now alone, in a world of my own.
Only me, and thats when i start to think about my life.
This past few days n weeks, i had been thinking deep...very very deep.
I don't know whats wrong with me.

I know,theres nothing that i can complain about in my life.
My grandma, grandfather, father, mother, sisters, uncles, aunties, cousins n etc all are great people. that = My family is GREAT....n
I've got all the basic necessities and even got more than that, i cannot be more thankful.
so, my life should be great rite?

But, theres is still this BUT.
There is this something that made me feel down.
and again i don't know what that something is.
I cannot say that there is no reason behind all these, n it is a lie cause there is something but i just don't know what it is.
Something that is hidden, that even me myself havent discovered whats hidden or missing in my life.
Somehow my thoughts had wondered there and is now struggling or more like dying to know more.
I am not always like this, i dont feel down most of the time. This is unusual.
I am not the usual me. I want to be the usual me again. I do not want to always feel down.
I want to be the carefree me. Yes, i do look like i am the usual me, but when i am alone this is what happens. This is freaking me out.
Too much for me to handle, emo emo emo...

I might or might not know about the hidden or missing something.
At the end of the day life goes on, and how i wish i can go on as life goes on.
I keep on telling myself that life goes on and i will just go with the flow but deep down inside i wont. Cause i just cannot and do not want to go against my will, cause i know in the end i will suffer more if i just follow my life n go on without knowing whats that hidden something inside me.

*Hidup aku takkan sempurna tanpa ...
apa ya? sesuatu yang aku pun belum tahu lagi...

monday the sixteenth

i am no more in tpg,been back here for about three weeks plus d.
I planned to blogged bout my holiday in Taiping,but i just did not, cos theres just too much happenings here in kl and i am too busy attending to them or more like i m lazy.
So, at last here i am wanting to blog, but again otak aku sememangnya kosong!
Where has all the thoughts in my head gone to? Maybe they had jump into sea cause i did not take care of them good enough in my head.
Yesterday is fathers day! Happy Fathers Day to my PAPA! (dun think he knows this exist.)

My life is sad. izit so? I think so but i dont really know.
My life is miserable, izit so? Tak tahu..
My life is a Fool,izit so? Maybe yes,Maybe not.
So, am i depressed or wat? Mungkin Ya atau Tidak.
What will be next?
No one knows, cause Tommorow is Unknown!

A bit of here n there???

I am a little bit sick, a little bit blur, and a little bit not blur. So what am i now?
A little bit of everything.
For the past few days that i had not been blogging, i had been thinking of what to blog!
and did i get anything? yes, i did. But there are too much thoughts and all are scattered in the great mind of mine, So i cannot put them in words yet, still have to organize my thoughts first.

Give me a few moments,
n i will be able :
to blog what i wanted to blog...
to say what i want to say...

So, till then...

wait..got pictures.

two only la.

Mumu

This post is going to be about my friend Nadya(heres a link to her blog). Told her i m goin to blog bout her, so here it is...

She is Nadya or Mumu or 'nad-yah' given by our addmath teacher.
I first met her when i was in form 5 n that was 2005, she came from Penang.
She is this new girl in class where everyone was like, WAH, ada budak baru masuk kelas kita!
No la, we were not so jakun as if we were in primary schools. Everyone was like hyeing here n there to here. N she is quite friendly, n she look soft and diam diam. But when i get to know her she is as krazy as she can be. She can also be loud sometimes and she is not the diam diam type. Whatever it is, she is a GREAT friend of mine.
We keep on talking in class, n i remember she got this cat she sayang very much and if i m not wrong her cat's name is Oshiey.(duno correct or wrong the spelling)
I duno wat stories we keep on talking about la, but we got alot of stories to talk about wan,Or more like gossiping.
Oh, n she is very good in music n she is doing music now after spm. all the best to her!
She is a very dahsyat drive last time, la but now okay d kot.
She moved back to penang d, after spm so we can only meet once in a while.
I think i m going to meet her tomoro, if she is free or if she can escape.

This is her.
Very big eyes she got.

To Nadya,
See, i blog bout u! U bangga anot? haha
Actually this is abit copy u wan, just copy the format ly but the contents different!
Sumore i write all good good wan, happy anot?

-The End-

Kepanasan yang memBARA-BARA

Hari ini, saya akan berbahasa Malaysia, kerana sebagai seorang anak Taiping, kita kena kerap menggunakan bahasa malaysia!
Setelah sekian lama saya tidak menggunakan bahasa malaysia dalam penulisan, saya harap saya masih boleh berbahasa Malaysia.

Hari ini adalah hari yang paling panas sepanjang masa saya berada di Taiping.
Saya telah mengalami kepanasan yang membara bara hari ini, dan hampir masak di dalam kereta.
Pagi tadi penyaman udara di dalam kereta yang saya guna itu masih berfungsi dengan baik, tetapi entah kenapa tengah hari tadi, penyaman udara itu seperti sudah gila. Udara yang keluar dari ia cuma sikit sejuk,Ia seperti tidak boleh sampai ke saya jadi saya kena letak muka saya di hadapan penyaman udara itu untuk menghayati udara sejuk kerana saya terlalu panas di dalam kereta dan tidak boleh menahan kepanasan itu lagi. Jika tidak berbuat demikian, kemungkinan besar saya akan pengsan di dalam kereta!
Bukan itu sahaja, tangan dan kaki saya yang terkena pancaran sang matahari itu hampir masak! Masak! masak! Masak!
Saya langsung tidak boleh buka mata saya hari ini apabila berdepan dengan sang Matahari yang terik menerik itu!
Bayangkan betapa panasnya hari ini.
Sangat2 panas dan saya berasa hendak memotong rambut saya kerana sangat PANAS!
Kepanasan yang membara bara tetapi malangnya tiada kebaraan api kebahagiaan.

This is pointless, Just Ignore!

This few nights,i log in to blogger and wanted to blog. Sometimes i even started typing a few sentences but eventually i stopped and did not post anything.
Everyday i have thoughts of what to blog about.
So,Theres a lot that i want to blog about, but when i started typing any post, all those thoughts on what to blog just disappear. Maybe i should jot down my thoughts, so that i can blog.
But the thing is i wont eh. aih...

What are my thoughts? Where does all my thoughts go?
i just cannot get back my thoughts. I cannot even remember them!
This is not a good sign.
I cannot blog like how i did last time anymore.
Last time my posts are quite long,now short like duno wat!
I want to make it long but i just cannot! Even that long post tak jadi just one almost long nia.
My mind is blank! Blank! Blank!
How can this happen?
Nowadays, my post are just complains n complains.
N most of it are pointless, post yang tiada hala tuju.
but wait,this is my blog i can just do whatever i want with it!
So, whats this post about then? No point la. Just ignore this!

i hope i can next post will be one with hala tuju.
n tersusun too.

selamat tinggal

This post is dedicated to eejane @ JN. She is my krazy and great friend.
She leave Taiping,Perak,Malaysia today.
Krazy times were the super fun times!

To eejane @ JN,

• Tahniah! Bunga ungu anda telah mekar!
• Keep the fire burning no matter where you are! Which i know u will!
• Lets work harder to collect more woods!
• Remember our mission!
• Thanks for everything!
• I will be looking forward for more krazy days to come!
• Don't miss siang malam Kopi Oh too much!
  
• Selamat Tinggal dan jumpa lagi bila kita berjumpa!
• Sementara itu,kita berjumpa di MSN sajala...