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I m facing this screen n thinking of what to blog about.
This is because no kopi oh for me tonite! therefore,my mind is not creative and imaginative tonite!
So this post will be as short as it is.

Long Post yang Tak Jadi

I was looking through my older post and they r quite long,so i am making this a long post.
But u know what? I don't know what to blog about, n still want to blog n make this a long post.

I was chatting with Sher Lyn, my friend since kindergarten. We were talking about how our life had change or more to how we have changed? Its like this, sometimes we sensed or felt that something about us have changed but we just don't know what is it. However, time will let us think about it n we will somehow find out about it. But some of it, just forgotten, once forgotten forever gone! Sometimes i will just sit down n think about my life, what am i now? n how was i before? Most of the time i just cannot answer myself. But why? wonder about life rite? n why? compare the past me n the present me? Cause nothing will change things that already happened rite? but i Can't help it but to think n think n think about my life. N after the thinking sessions most of the time i will discover something about life, which is good or bad? More to the good i think. N so i should let my mind explore n wonder more.

Its now 1.40 in the morning n my mind is functioning not quite right.
I drank Kopi Oh in Siang Malam justnow, but that is not what that is causing me to still be awake. Its me myself that is reluctant to sleep.Then when i wake up late the next day i will be blaming myself for not waking up early. Sometimes i just wonder what kind of human am i? but every human is unique and different in their own way. So i m just what i am no matter what i am, every human being should be accepted as what they are. I think caffeine makes my thinking creative and imaginative and also abit smarter!


i m Trying to make this long but its obvious i tak berjaya.Not Long Enough!
Nevermine, i will make it berjaya next time.
N my back hurts for
1) sitting on the bed with the laptop on my lap.
2) sitting the meditation sitting position with the laptop on a pillow on the bed.
I was in those two positions since 11 something p.m. Which is for about 2 and the half n more hours.

*i was wondering how come no green in this post?so heres the bit of green in this post.

Bintang

Ku petik bintang,
Untuk kau simpan,
Cahayanya tenang,
Berikan kau perlindungan.

Benarkah yang bintang boleh memberikan perlindungan?
Dan jika ia memang benar, aku ingin petik bintang untuk diriku sendiri.
Aku tak tau apa yang aku tengah merepek, tetapi yang aku tau, aku nak petik bintang!!!
Apakah sebenarnya warna bintang? Agaknya ada tak bintang yang berwarna hijau?
Bintang Hijau! Di mana bintang hijau??? ke bintang itu cuma adalah cahaya?
Aku memerlukan perlindungan bintang, dan juga perlindungan untuk menyemarakkan api!

The Doughnut / Donut story

Aku berjaya...
I made Donut yesterday! n we succeeded, =)
The process of making the donut was quite long. The time we waited for the donut to rise before frying it was like never ending.
First we mix the flour n yeast n water, n after the dough gets dry then we started shaping the donut, quite fun n theres some technique to shape the donut! Then wait for the donuts to rise, then fry n
Finally....
The Donuts not that perfect, but for first timers not bad la.
We top the donuts with glaze and chocolate rice and nuts.
Thats the end of doughnut / donut story...
=)

Made?Cooked?Baked?

Things i made/cook/ baked!

The first was the dessert i made! hehe...There is a thai name for the dessert but i duno what is it called.The dessert was also called Red Ruby, i think it is red ruby because there is this chunks of water chestnuts that was covered with tapioca flour n it looks like red ruby kot. But the one i made, got green ones also,hehe.
Oh, i think cookies was the first. I baked cookies, n the cookies with all kind of special special shapes,hehe. It was chocolate chip cookies with some strips of almonds.
N then the cup cakes!!!This one i got pictures, actually ejane mixed everything n i just decorated some of it lo, but still i m a part of it!Just look at the photos, it tells u everything!

All of it.nice rite? haha(click the pic to see the details on the cup cakes)

Fire, fire! Please burn!

N today we r going to make donuts! Then i duno what to make d! Must go think again!
Holiday is just super fun! So i m making good use of my holiday to cook n bake lo.
I woke up super late today, n was like shocked. I have to wake up earlier tomorrow!!!
There is something i want to blog about, but i will put it in another post later!

*how does the foods taste like? Should be nice la! haha!

My thoughts

This few days, i had been thinking deeply about my life.
What will i be in the future? Will i succeed or fail in life?
and i m tired of doing so!
I m tired of my thoughts! I don't want to think, think, think anymore!
Why can't i just live the present n don't care about the future n past? My thoughts is more to the future, so, why must i think so much about the future? Who knows what will happen in the future? Some people may know,but what i know is i won't know! Does the future really matters? I think it does,but i m just tired thinking about it! My mind have to stop thinking about it!

I have all the time i want now, and i don't know what to do to fill my time. N i m just too lazy to do anything! n that should be the cause of my thoughts...
I guess everything in life is like this,
when you want something, u will never get it but when you dont want it, it will just appear in front of u...

miracle

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

I believe in miracle,do you? Once i thought that was miracle, but i was wrong, it was more like an obstacle for miracle,i think. Anyway what is done is done, let the past be in the past. Now, lets talk about the future. Nothing is easy and for everything we get there is a price to pay,just like the saying 'Nothing is free".To get something or to achieve something sure got some bump here n there,where got everything smooth only wan,right? Even highway also the roads not smooth eh. So,I believe and i will achieve. hehe =)
Why on earth am i suddenly blogging bout miracle? Just feel like it i guess. Maybe its because of the song from Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston that i m into this few days. So exams over, and i don't have to study for bout a month! What a relief ! =)

one more to go

One more paper to go and i m done for the semester!!!!
n i really really really really really want to pass all the subjects i took, that i will know on judgment day a.k.a result releasing day!
i just cannot wait for holidays to come, and that is happening after my last paper on friday!
last paper here i come!!!
ok,i have to force myself to study for the last paper....
How i wish i can study willingly, without me forcing myself to study.

i need help!
i m desperate...
for what huh?
i duno...
i m so going to slap myself...

update:
i know what help i need!
i need someone to slap me when i dont study!
thats very funny,cos now i m not studying n updating this post very important hor!
I cant wait for my holidays to come!
SO SO SO desperate for holiday!!!
coming soon after exams!
desperado equals me! again?aiyoh..
holidays equals motivation to study!

exams?

My exams starts next Tuesday, n yes that is why i am blogging. see,so soon exam coming again!
I am scared and stressed,but i m doing nothing.
Tan Yi Xuan, please study! study!
Dont start den stop! understand?
see,i m now talking to myself..oh,no!
ok, Tan Yi Xuan let me tell u something,
let the coming holidays be the motivation for u to study,okay? Can?
ok,holidays will be my motivation to study!
wish me luck!
thankq