My thoughts

This few days, i had been thinking deeply about my life.
What will i be in the future? Will i succeed or fail in life?
and i m tired of doing so!
I m tired of my thoughts! I don't want to think, think, think anymore!
Why can't i just live the present n don't care about the future n past? My thoughts is more to the future, so, why must i think so much about the future? Who knows what will happen in the future? Some people may know,but what i know is i won't know! Does the future really matters? I think it does,but i m just tired thinking about it! My mind have to stop thinking about it!

I have all the time i want now, and i don't know what to do to fill my time. N i m just too lazy to do anything! n that should be the cause of my thoughts...
I guess everything in life is like this,
when you want something, u will never get it but when you dont want it, it will just appear in front of u...

miracle

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

I believe in miracle,do you? Once i thought that was miracle, but i was wrong, it was more like an obstacle for miracle,i think. Anyway what is done is done, let the past be in the past. Now, lets talk about the future. Nothing is easy and for everything we get there is a price to pay,just like the saying 'Nothing is free".To get something or to achieve something sure got some bump here n there,where got everything smooth only wan,right? Even highway also the roads not smooth eh. So,I believe and i will achieve. hehe =)
Why on earth am i suddenly blogging bout miracle? Just feel like it i guess. Maybe its because of the song from Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston that i m into this few days. So exams over, and i don't have to study for bout a month! What a relief ! =)

one more to go

One more paper to go and i m done for the semester!!!!
n i really really really really really want to pass all the subjects i took, that i will know on judgment day a.k.a result releasing day!
i just cannot wait for holidays to come, and that is happening after my last paper on friday!
last paper here i come!!!
ok,i have to force myself to study for the last paper....
How i wish i can study willingly, without me forcing myself to study.

i need help!
i m desperate...
for what huh?
i duno...
i m so going to slap myself...

update:
i know what help i need!
i need someone to slap me when i dont study!
thats very funny,cos now i m not studying n updating this post very important hor!
I cant wait for my holidays to come!
SO SO SO desperate for holiday!!!
coming soon after exams!
desperado equals me! again?aiyoh..
holidays equals motivation to study!

exams?

My exams starts next Tuesday, n yes that is why i am blogging. see,so soon exam coming again!
I am scared and stressed,but i m doing nothing.
Tan Yi Xuan, please study! study!
Dont start den stop! understand?
see,i m now talking to myself..oh,no!
ok, Tan Yi Xuan let me tell u something,
let the coming holidays be the motivation for u to study,okay? Can?
ok,holidays will be my motivation to study!
wish me luck!
thankq

kegeraman yang amat sangat

i am super geram!
i take every effort i can to get the sims2 with the other expansion packs..
n i drove all the way to the well known digital mall to get it!
n the service super bad, the salesperson totally sucks! The face black like shit,
ask her questions she say she duno,cos she din play. As a salesperson u should find out about all ur products rite? Damn shitty!!!
fine,anway i bought the dvd for 20 cos got 2cds..
n guess wat?
i CANNOT INSTALL THE SIMS 2!!! THAT JUST RUINED MY WHOLEDAY!
THAT STUPID CD CANNOT USE EH!
the first one i get from one can use,but after sometime cannot d.
So what is this huh? i m fated to not play the sims 2 zit?
just hate it,2nd time liao!
super kek nia!

lepaking

spending the past few days, loitering around doing nothing. =)
Slept late at night n woke up extremely late.
The reason is : sims.
I bought a mouse from ikano last wednesday,n today cannot use d!
Damn, cheap stuff is like that i think!
Have to go get another one, this time i knw wat to get.
I m hungry,but i m going for nasi lemak later..late late late..
But i m now hungry!how? how? how?
I m going to get something to eat first!!!

i am calm now.

Yesterday i was just being me.
So,how do i feel today? Not so angered or saddened anymore.
When i know things wont go the way i want, at that moment my reaction will be gigantic! But after a while,everything will be normal again.That is me...
Although i m still trying to make my plan work n unflushed it from the "jamban kang", but i know tough luck. I doubt that will happen.
I am like that, at that very moment when my plan was flushed, its like the whole world is going against me n the world ending! Eventually, i will realize the next day usually, nothing big n there is no need to be so angered n saddened. So, i dramatic zit? I duno la.
But still... *sigh

I just notice that, I don't really blog about happy stuff,sometimes i do but most of it are complains of my dissatisfaction. But i think that is one of the purpose of me having this blog, to complain n complain n no one will bother what i write. So, i can write whatever i like. Don't have to think twice or watsoever!

I hate assignments, exams, and quizzes! How i wish, college is without those three, just attend lectures and tutorials, and thats it. The lecturer will just asses n grade us like dat! So nice hor? but dream on ezen,That will never ever happen!
I am a last minute person, everything also last minute. My assignments forever last minute!!!

I wan to play the sims 2 with the expansions,but i cannot get to install it to my pc! MCK!
i had been waiting from last week,but when i got it cannot install. I wonder how shit things will be somemore! First the plan, then this, n whats next?

i am saddened

I just hate it,when things dont turn out the way i want them to be.
It will just ruin everything!
and i super hate when i planned everything nicely d,then just because of some dumb dumb reason.
Everything i plan had to be thrown into the "jamban kang" n flush! everything gone!
No appealing, no asking again, nothing. Just shut up n follow the order!
Do u know how i feel?
I feel like i am a hamba, don't even have the right to talk,just listen!
DAMN IT!!!!!
n why is this happening?
This is happening because one bunch of idiots did something n the actions of those idiots had caused my plan to be flushed!
Idiots will always remain as idiots. Moreover they are the stupidest,dumbest bunch of idiots!
I wont call them idiots,if their actions doesn't interfere my life! But now i hate them n they are idiots,because of them my plan is flushed!
DAMN the idiots!

out of a sudden

Accidents happen everywhere, and sometimes in the toilet.
I fell, luckily not into the "jamban kang",just on the floor ly.
I slipped n fell n it hurts!
The reason for me not blogging is because i got nothing to blog about.
That means nothing much had happened since the last post from me.
Actually, got somethings la,but i am just lazy n then i duno what i want to blog d.
I had weird dreams.
I wonder why do i have these kind of dreams?

I got something to ask u all,answer honestly wan :
am i too into the color Green? Like super Fanatic?
but it is still okay rite?

This part is specially dedicated to, Kawanku Mei Ling!
Its Joanne beckham aka mei ling's birthday yesterday, just past a few hours ago nia.
N she celebrated her birthday with something inked into her skin.
n so Happy Belated Birthday Mei Ling!!!! or u preferto be known as Joanne beckham?
But i m used to calling u Mei Ling all along d eh, very hard to change eh.
Tetapi aku akan cuba sedaya upaya, kalau you mau digelar Joanne Beckham!
Aku minta maaf banyak banyak kawan, cause din wish u tepat tepat the time.
n Have a wonderful , happening, wuiyohing, Fuyohing year ahead!!!