Friday, August 20, 2010

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Di malam yang sejuk lagi berunning nose ini, ku ingin menceritakan perasaan ku yang bercampur aduk ini.
Perasaan yang rasa best ada tetapi bila berfikir pasal kerja2 terus jadi depress dan perasaan sejak aku mulakan semester ini memang ...
Rasa memang sgt malas tetapi apa yang dimulakan harus di habiskan. Aku hendak semua ini cepat berlalu, tetapi bila ianya berlalu akan ku mulakan fasa hidup ku yang ketiga. Jangan kata fasa hidup ketiga, bila berfikir pasalnya kadang ku rasa senang, tetapi hati kecil ini amat takut sebenar2nya, aku masih tidak pasti apa hala tuju ku. Pada masa ini saat ini aku masih tiada hala tuju.
Aku cuma tahu yang aku hendak pulang ke Tanah air itu semestinya, setakat itu aja yang ada di minda sekarang. Aku tahu diri ku ini bukannya pelajar cemerlang bukannya seseorang yang hebat, aku cuma seorang insan biasa yang agak malas,tetapi yang pasti aku hendak jadi insan yang berguna. Memang semuanya telah ditentukan kita cuma perlu mengikut jalannya, tetapi kita perlu juga tahu apa kah jalan yang kita mahu dan adakah jalan yang kita pilih jalan yang terbaik? Adakah kita akan menyesal di hari kemudian? Kerana bila kita memilih Jalan itu, memang tiada u turning, cos ini jalan hidup kalau bisa u turn pun masa masa keemasan di hidup kita ini akan di bazirkan. Tetapi kalau nak berfikiran positif bolehla menganggap semuanya adalah pengalaman hidup dan kita belajar dari pengajaran..
Hidup ini nak dikatakan panjang enggak, nak di katakan pendek enggak juga. Jadi kita mesti
Live Life the Fullest... Tiada siapa tahu apa akan jadi esok, apa akan jadi nanti. Entah entah esok ku tak bangun dari tidur.. Jadi setiap peluang mesti di ambil, setiap cabaran mesti di sahut..
Apa pun yang hendak kita buat pasti akan jadi, walau kadang seakan mustahil tetapi belum cuba belum tahu, kalau kita jatuh harus tabah dan bangun lagi..

"Setiap langkah ke seribu bermula dari langkah Pertama, jadi tak ada apa yang Mustahil."

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I don't know why and what i am feeling now.
Is everything too overwhelming and that my heart cannot take it?
and that it why it is reacting in this way to let me know.
Or is it that something is really wrong with me?
I betul betul duno.
How now brown cow?

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

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Hati terasa berat.
Sangat keberatan untuk pergi.

Friday, January 29, 2010

2010 resolution

Normally i wouldnt care about new year resolutions or wat so ever, but this year i made a list of resolutions for the year 2010.More like a list of resolution to change my life.

Ezen's New Year Resolution.

1. Sleep early, wake up early.
2. Exercise at least thrice a week, preferably once a day.
3. Be disciplined n determined to achieve whatever i am looking for, priority Studies.
4. Be Strong, n be able to control my mind.
5. No more last minutes.
6. Live a healthy lifestyle.
7. Graduate this year.
8. Whatever that is listed here,have to be accomplished.

oh one more 9. Drink lots of water everyday.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

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Apa nak aku kata?
Aku tidak tahu.
Apa yang aku rasa?
Aku tidak tahu.
Apa kah yang akan terjadi?
Aku tidak tahu.
Adakah semua ini akan terjawab?
entahlah...

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

a single word.

everything is not right.
everything is playing a fool with me.
the laptop is, the mouse is the handphone is..everything..
my room, just everything around me is.
in conclusion,everything that i am dealing with is..
my life is just sad..
its just sad to start the new year like this
 =(

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

after a while.

I am home..for a while now.
Yes,i am as happy as i can be by just being in Taiping..
But inside i am really really worried, of my results n etc..n i had been thinking alot.
Does growing older make u think more? I think yes. Somehow, we aged we will become more serious eventho we don't want to,or most of the time we dun realize, but we do aged we do become more serious. I may be childish at times, be crazy at times, but the me now will know when to be serious n when not to be serious, although people might still think that i am un-serious.
Recently i realize something, that i am really impatience..
But everything in my life now is about patience,almost everything that is happening now requires me to be patience, which i have no choice of other than to be patience, maybe thats y i had been behaving really impatience when i drive,channeling everything to my driving..
 Of course i want to be a kid all my life, no worries, nothing..But we all know, we will grow older, from a baby to a toddler to a kid to a teen and den an adult n then grow old..As we grow our responsibilities grows as well..

After the storm, after the rain,there will be rainbow n sunlight..so does it mean after a crisis everything will be good again?

Friday, November 13, 2009

...


If i had to drive all day take that flight.
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight.


-etyx-

Thursday, November 05, 2009

the fifth of the eleventh month.

Today is the fifth of november..
Everything just fall into place nicely n perfectly ..
Thank you to all my great friends..


This year is a bit different, its the first time of ...n its all good =)
n i am really happy n thankful..
Semuanya bermakna istimewa..walaupun tetapi yang penting aku tahu la di hati...


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Monday, November 02, 2009

hope n magic

Sunday as usual.But i think days that i hav no classes is the same to me as sundays.
No more class till next year, only exams to go..
four paper n holiday till semester starts again next year. i know i will enjoy my holiday eventhough by just sitting at home or walking around taiping.

i had been bloggin everyday for the past two days,kan. But all also bull shit, i actually duno what to blog but i log in to blogger n click new post just to want to blog la. But then when the thing is in front of me i got nothing to blog already, my life is not interesting n i duno,what else. But this fews days i think its the exam thing that is making me really good at bullshitting on my blog.

So i was thinking,How come people can blog everyday, everyday also got something to blog about, all those top blogger will blog once a days or at least a few days once they will not abandon their blog for like a week the most i think. N thats what they do, they blog blog n earn money, not little but alot.. So back to my thought, how come people can blog everyday? n my friend answered me, its like how u can sleep so much in a day? Like that la. Ohh,like that isit. but i actually sleep alot only when i m here. But when i m in Taiping i feel that sleeping is wasting my time, taking a nap in the afternoon is a NO NO no matter how tired i am, unless i really really cannot open my eyes till cannot walk faint n all la. I will utilized the time i have in taiping to the MAX, if people say gold is precious,time is gold. To me time in taiping is more more more precious than gold.

Yes its always about taiping n taiping n taiping. But time that had already pass will never come back. Whatever that had bypass will not come back, we cannot turn back time. That is why people always say let the past be the past, cause u really cannot do anything about it anymore, n future is the one that we r looking forward into. How i wish i can turn back time, n i would had make alot of decisions differently, n handle situations differently...how i wish, but time cannot turn back also nevermine, cause the really important n meaningful thing in my life.. i had already knew whatever it is, and i had already got whatever i want, and its all a lesson not only a lesson but its really something that make me truly realise...Expect the unexpected.. I never ever thought that all of that would turn out the way it is now. N never ever thought that,all of i found out latter is what actually happen n not what i had been believing all along.

I had already given up hope, to me all that had happen was meant to be i cannot do anything more, just accept whatever that had happened, i feel too stupid too dumb n i dun even have the courage to have hope anymore, i kept telling myself not to hope, no matter how much my heart wants to hope that, all is not true, and its all just a bad bad dream. i force myself to not even have a lil eensy weensy bit of hope,n i just push everything aside n just live everday n just let time make me get used to it,n i had given up hope..
But but but at the end, when i least expected, its when all the magic happens =)
a miracle that i thought will never happen..n it did, i found miracle..i am thankfull really..

Betapa ezen rasa syukurnya, hanya tuhan tahu..Betapa bahagianya hati ezen, hanya tuhan tahu.. Semuanya tidak dapat diluahkan dalam kata kata..Semuanya terlalu indah, cuma orang orang yang bertuah akan merasainya..